Take Me For What I Am...

Guess Who's Back...

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 06:27:17 GMT

Damn I Keep Poppin in and out... are y'all annoyed yet... so much shit has been going on... I'm now living In South Carolina... oh yes... fun stuff... Anywho... Gotta Run... Hit Me Up!!! Much Love...

Yup... I take the Cake!!

Sun, 11 Apr 2004 13:52:15 GMT

So last night ash and i went to see apartment 26... they were playing with sevendust but fuck that noise... chilled with my boys after and what am i offered?? Biff tells me that if I can make it to Maine Monday then he'll give me VIP Guest passes... damn... you mean I get to go see my husband for free?? lol... and worst of all... Brad says I cant go unless Im up front... duh... arent I always?! I heart Biff... but they are all so wonderful... what a buncha hotties!! it was so good to see them again... after tomorrow... they wont be back around until River Rave on the 30th of May... so so sad... I may go thru withdrawals by then... considering in the past month Ive seen them 3.. going on 4 times.. March 10th, 11th and April 10th, 12th... what to do?! Well Peeps... Check out APARTMENT26.com and for a demo IM me or Email me with your address... Much Love!

I'm Still Kickin' It...

Thu, 25 Mar 2004 22:59:12 GMT

Well... with Streeters help I've come to the conclusionthat Ive gotta start updating again... but since so much has happened... it would take way to long to go back to August... so heres the low down... Kicked Philip to NY.... down with overbearing dishonest Junkies... Got a New Car... my beautiful 2000 VW Jetta in Midnight Blue... Considering moving... Either to Maine or Florida... either will happen by the end of the summer... got to talk to a lot of the friends in FL that I lost touch with... Busy Looking for a job... thinking about taking position at Texas Roadhouse... not too sure about the line dancing aspect though... Ash and I went to NYC for a concert... met my husband...he was quite impressed that i drove 4 and a half hours just to see him... He's gonna be in the area on the 10th and then we're taking the 3 hour trip to Maine to see him on the 12th... Also met this great guy named Jay from the band Bring Home This War... he wants to hang out sometime soon... he's so cute... I could just eat him up... I dont know what my obsession with musicians is... but I swear Im gonna end up the wife of a rock star!! lol... Well I'm sure youre all mad bored by now... So I'm gonna hit the road... Hit me up!! I miss you all!!

hey strangers

Fri, 30 May 2003 11:56:06 GMT

been too busy to write lately got 3 jobs... dennys blakes and D'angelos... work about 60-80 hours a week... other then that i sleep... my nose wont sop bleeding i think its broken... philip and i got into a bit o a fight this morning before he left for work... shit gotta run... have to be in nashua by 8...

hmmm... update?! sure... why not?!

Sun, 30 Mar 2003 06:17:48 GMT

well... philip and i are still going strong... 9 months of being together... 5 of being official... yay!! Unfortunatly... Dad says he can no longer stay here... damn dads... good for nothing except making me miserable... We are seriously considering moving back to NH... I am all for it... and he is into serious consideration... I kinda miss everyone and everything up there... not sure it'll be permanant... but figure it's atleast worth a shot... (Don't Worry Guys... I'll Warn ya before I leave you so we can all hang out... sound good?? and I can always coe back... even if it is just to visit...)
Other than that not muich else is new... I'm gonna run... gotta make deviled eggs for a cookout tomorrow... night!

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Mon, 20 Jan 2003 02:45:47 GMT

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Fucking Lies and Let Downs...

Fri, 17 Jan 2003 04:04:58 GMT

Ugh!! Disappointments... Everywhere... All around me...

So Phil and I are doing Wonderfully!! Seriously... No Complaints... He quit his Job @ Outback... I think he's better off now... but it's too early on to tell...

I'm kind of excited about the fair... but quite disappointed with it also... not with it... but with what it's supposed to be... a lot of heart ache involved... in a way... ::sigh::

I'm just sick of being kicked aside and left behind... I'm sick of all these let downs... I guess I can always count on Phil...

Every little thing... is gonna be alright...

Sun, 12 Jan 2003 16:50:51 GMT

yup... things look better... im just paranoid... it's hard not to be when you want something so badly... when you know it could all be so much easier... you just arent quite sure how... you know you're doing all you can... and being the best you can be... and you know theres some reason your little world hasnt crumbled thus far... theres broken glass all around you... and you're doing your best to step over it... to keep the wounds closed... ::sigh:: Everything will be okay... Im sure of it...

Man... I dont want to babysit today... but I couldnt say no either... so... Im Stuck... I had a great night with Phil... I miss him... we used to spend so much time together... but I'm glad he has his scooter... because its better to miss him than to not want him around... he really is all I could ever ask for...

Okay... so seriously guys... call me or something... Streeter, Rose, Mags... you all have my number... I miss you guys!! I may just have to stop by forest hill sometime... dont make it come down to that... PLEASE!! :) Alright... I'm Out!! Peace!

::sigh::

Sat, 11 Jan 2003 06:05:15 GMT

Things arent right... Though when are they ever... I love this addiction... but it shouldnt hurt as it does... I'm almost convinced I'm not obsessed but if that were the case wouldnt I be able to let go... I wish there was a cure... but there isnt... I drop it... I'm hurt... and alone... I stick to it... and I'm hurt... and I'm alone... I dont want to be some drug crazed fiend... but this addiction is a lot worse than any drug addiction could ever be... this ones a lot more painful... life could be so easy... it's all fucking karma... I should have listened to Germaine growing up... Sophie... always do unto others as you want others to do unto you... I can hear that big sister voice loud and clear now... but it's much too late now... my actions are all coming back on me... anywho...

I got new pants... 2 pairs of jeans... and a pair of pink cords... I'm wearing the cords right now... they make me smile when I look at them... not many people are lucky enough to own a pair of pink cuordaroys... now if only I were lucky enough to find my chucks... oh well... I always said I wanted a nice sweet innocent emo boy... Damn it Maggie and Rose... Phil aint EMO... you guys lead me in the wrong direction... I'll forgive you this time...

I guess I have nothing more to say... so I'll chat with you all later... I need a life guys... Dial my 7... and Streeter what ever happened to tonight?? werent we gonna chill?? Oh Well... too late now... Another night... Well... I love you all... ttyl!!

Oh By The Way... Happy Birthday AnDy!! I miss you bunches... so sad I couldnt say goodbye... looking forward to being able to say hello... (hugz) I LOVE YOU!!

Thu, 02 Jan 2003 15:00:04 GMT

Hey... Anyone feel like White Russians?? I still got most of a Gallon... Call me!!

Out with the Old... In with the New...

Thu, 02 Jan 2003 01:51:24 GMT

well... Everyone says the person you bring the new year in with.. you will have good luck with in the next year... I never believed it... but hopefully its true this time.. Phil and I plotted against his work... so he wouldnt be stuck there until after midnight... we went to his brothers friends house... I got way too drunk for my own good... not quite as drunk as phil... but still...
lol... we all missed midnight... by 2 minutes... i got hit with fireworks... both bottle rockets and fire crackers... I sat on some lit fire crackers burnt my pants... and my legs... fireworks and sophie dont mix... phil and laura ate tadpoles... went head to head on ho could eat the most... laura won... she even chewed one up... ick!! she deserved to win that one.... poor phil ended up throwing up... ick! it was wicked gross... anywho... new years was all in all not bad... wished i could have seen a few friends... but people get busy... its understandable...

Happy New Year All!

Out with the Old... In with the New...

Thu, 02 Jan 2003 01:49:12 GMT

I'm Back...

Sat, 28 Dec 2002 08:45:44 GMT

well after so long of having o computer... i gots one...

Yay!! Anywho... X-mas was nice... I'll explain more later... and Im a HouseKeeper now... its good bank... Phil and I are plannign to go to NH in June... It'll be good to see people... Im excited...

Hmmm... other then that nothings new... so I guess thats all...
lAtEr!

pS rOsE NeEdS tO cAlL sOpHie ReAl SoOn.. JoHn PaRk too!

Oh Happiness!!

Sun, 06 Oct 2002 12:40:18 GMT

I'm at Johns House... at 5:30 in the morning... Phil is sleeping and mom and I are cleaning house... well actually Im updating because I am Happy... then I am cleaning... Okay... so Everything in Sophie's Life is looking up... Finally... Let Me Begin... Drum roll please!!
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well to start off with... Ive got my Beautiful Ford Focus... yay!! Its a fast one!! it doesnt like going less than 75... maybe it and I should have a talk... dont need to add more tickets.. Secondly... the thing that makes me jump for joy... Rose should easily be able to see why... Phil and I are finally official... YUP YUP... he asked me out tonight... and I must say... I couldnt be happier... I've worked so hard to get to this point... and finally I did it!!
Wish me Luck!! and Rose... I will definatly try to set aside a night for Sophie and Rose... Promise!! Well... Rosa's probably wondering if IM ever gonna help her!! So... Have Fun Everyone!! ROSE CALL ME!!! ASAP!!! Love you guys!!

la-di-da

Sat, 28 Sep 2002 05:21:40 GMT

eventful day... woke up at 4:30 drove dad to work... came home got ready for work... went to work... blah blah... left work... stop by phils... he was still in Stuart... guessed he'd be there until sunday... guessed wrong cuz he called me on the way to dads work.. told him id stop by later... got my dad... went to davie... realized davie is far... too far... then went to the Ford dealer in Coconut Creek to fill out papers... came home... dropped off daddy... went to Phils... got Taco Bell... and waited for Matt to go to bed... so it could be just Phil and I... watched clerks with Phil.. then made his bed so he could lay down... gave him a massage... layed with him and talked for like 20 minutes... then one thing led to another... layed with him longer... smoked a butt... by this time it was 11:30... decided i better get home and get the milk daddy asked for back to dad's... so I stopped by Mobil on the way ome... where i would get milk... when I was getting out of te car... this guy.. who i must admit was quite pretty was like hey... i kind of ignored it... and kept walking on my way out he was all hey what are you doing tonight... i must have sounded like a lame ass when i replied with going home and going to bed at 11:45 on a friday night... but he continued to carry on a conversation with me... we talked for like five more minutes and then i left... i should ave gotten his number... he could have made a good friend... but o well im an idiot.. got home... called rose and now here i am... so its time for me to go to bed... nigt all!!!

PS...maybe i fucked it all up on my own but you dont have to rub it in... you could stop pretending... and let me know im a waste of time... but you really shouldnt play me tis way... friends shouldnt play each other... you may know who you are... you may know you are a group... but you obviously never knew how much i loved and needed you... and you overlooked all i gave for you... in the end... i think ive learned my lesson... you know longer make me happy but i still like to have you around on rare occassions... they may have been good times... but now are only mixed emotions... and nameless memories...

----------------------SWEETDREAMS-----------------------

I Have a Voice Once Again!!!

Fri, 27 Sep 2002 00:01:55 GMT

I can talk online!!! I can write on LJ... all from the comforts of home!! Anywho... I cant believe its been almost 3 months since Phil and I got together... it seems like just yesterday... and Magz... thanx for dealing with him for me... it means a lot that you'll put up with his shit cuz ya know I love him... and I never said you have to like im... but you must admit... he's kinda sexy... hehe... you too Rose... I love you Gurlz... anyway... Im appy to be back!!

Wow... July 16th...

Tue, 10 Sep 2002 15:15:01 GMT

What is your Alter-Ego
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I can't believe that it's been that long... since then has been OzzFest Warped Tour... Sooo many good times and bad habits... and then there was Phil... or is Phil... sigh... <3 I'm a loser I know it... but he's so god damn cute... I dont think anyone can disagree...I dont really have much time to update... I leave for New Hampshire the 11th of October... not that anyone cares... buts whatever... I dunno... I really think thats it for now.. I'll be back Online shortly I hope... this once a month thing kinda sucks... it doesnt give me time to update with all of you... later gaters!

SHUT UP GUYS!!!

Wed, 17 Jul 2002 00:23:49 GMT

I am 71% Emo

Well.. I've made the cut! Now I'll go buy some promise rings and knit myself a sweater.

Take the Emo Test at fuali.com

yeah yeah... hush... i dont belong... maybe i do... but im shutting up before I sound too Emo... anywho... I went and played pool with my new friend Jason last night... he is delicious... hehe... anywho... I cant wait until Friday... I have a lot I need to speak with John about...
I wish Mags was around... or Will... Will makes me feel better... ::sigh:: My tummy hurts... Im on a Computer... Yay!!
Oh by the Way Next person to make fun of my accent gets hit!!! that goes for you too Jason... anywho... my friends kick dick ass!!! (sometimes) lol... anywho... BAH!!! I get a phone line in like less than a month YAY!! I'm out!!

Well it was fun while it lasted....

Mon, 15 Jul 2002 15:18:59 GMT

Bah... Damn... I hate when I fall asleep early... last night I went to bed at like 2 watching the Brutal Truth... I was having fun too... damn eyes just wouldnt stay open... BAH!! WELL Friday... John and I are supposed to hang out... dont know exactly what we'll do... but we'll figure out something... Well thats the only definate this week... tonight I have to work.... ICK!! I dont wanna work... I feel like shit!!! Night!

Home of the Mile High Salad....

Mon, 15 Jul 2002 00:32:43 GMT

well... I'm speding the night at Rose's tonight... her mom brought us to the cheesecake factory... I had the hugest Salad... I could only eat like half and it was an appetizer salad... SCARY!! but good... other then that theres nothing new... it's sad actually... I hate the fact that if you want things or people to change you have to do something about it yourself... hey it may work though... whon knows... why can't we aqll be purrrfect... why cant we know when we hurt someone and change it on our own without them having to confront us about it... ::sigh:: my life will never change... No matter where I move to... Why can't problems be solved before ending something that could be purrfect... IT'S CALLED COMMUNICATION PEOPLE!!! LEARN IT... LIVE BY IT!! UGH!!!!! Seriously... things could still work out if communication levels are reached... dont g0o thru such drastic measures... okay enough of my rants...

::sigh::

Sun, 14 Jul 2002 17:03:48 GMT

Lets see tonight I may stay at Rose's house... or she may stay at mine... I have so much to write about and so much I want to say... but I have no coputer to do so on... oh well... to make this short... BAH!

and still no chance for change....

Sun, 14 Jul 2002 06:47:13 GMT

which mr. men/little miss are you?
take the quiz & find out! :)
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ironic huh?! I talk about how I wear my mask yet my little miss is little miss sunshine... Its funny how you give so muich for one person and you get nothing in return.... NOTHING... OUCH! it's like unforgivable... and right now for the first time since Ive known them this person is hate-able... UGH! I'm also kind of upset that none of my friends in NH thought of me on my birthday... I was really hoping it would be different...
Well for my birthday I got... ::drumroll::
-50 bucks from Johns mom... (my Mom)
-20 bucks from my biological mother
-a pack of butts
-and a Slurpee
not too bad... but with the 50 i got my nails fixed and the Jimmy Eat World CD... today I chilled with my Daddy... we went to Applebee's and I have to go apply at the Olive Garden tomorrow... then Maggie and I went and played pool with Frank... and now I'm spending the night here at Maggles...

Other than that things are same old... I realized I enjoy conversations with Will.. he is a good conversationalist and always makes me feel better about my problems... Well... thats about all... Maggles is anxiously waiting to sign on... and you all know how she can be... j/k... so... have fun... I promise I'll buy a phone line soon... so I can be a computer geek too... (Just like my best friend in the whole wide world..(Maggles)) Love Ya! Out!

just because i love you

Fri, 12 Jul 2002 19:01:18 GMT

its sad i feel this way... so unimportant... a million people could say 3 words to you and it wouldnt matter... but if that one person forgets to speak those same three words... its heart breaking... I dont know what to say... my eyes are full of thoughts... yet no words come out of my mouth...

I just want to thank Maggie, Rose, Bonnie, Will, Andy, Frank and Ed for being the best group of friends I could ask for... Pool was fun last night... Will... we are the unbeatable SophWill... hmmm... what else... well I'm going to be alone tonight... Sadly... Maggie cant sleep over and it makes me cry... I'm so Emo... I wish I had someone tonight more then any other night... I wish today would go away.... I hate my birthday... it's the worst holiday I could imagine....

It can't Rain all the Time...

Thu, 11 Jul 2002 19:42:24 GMT

To make things easier on everyone... I wear my mask... my happy face... I pretend I dont care... I do... I act like it doesnt hurt... It does... I wish I could show you the real me... but the real me is truly unknown... to lose you... Id lose everything... to have lost you... I did... I thought you truly cared... You didnt... I knew I loved you all... I truly do...

Yup... Life is Grand.... Peachy Keen... everything... purrfect... so happy! Okay enough rambling... Tomorrows my birthday... I wish it would go away... I dont want it... These things always coem when you least need them... ie Birthdays.... A day you are supposed to celebrate your life with friends and loved ones... and be happy and merry... but what if what you are celebrating isnt truly worth celebrating... not to you... or anyone else... BAH!!! Well High Ho... its off to work I go...

It can't Rain all the Time...

Thu, 11 Jul 2002 19:41:19 GMT